[Maybe no one else but Celehar would call what he did 'using' the Emperor - but he finds it to be the truth. He knew his impertinence could, in the wrong place, in the wrong time, have led to his death. Never mind that he knows now that Edrahasivar VII would never have done such a thing. His father would have.
His father would never have summoned Celehar into his presence, though, and he supposes, with a weak twitch of the corner of his mouth, that it ought to have been his first sign.]
It seemed to me Ulis's will. [And once more, following the reckless compulsion he feels the need to clarify,] I - was given a task, and had not realized until I was doing so once more that I had missed it terribly. Have you met that feeling? It is - a compulsion. I cannot explain it, for in truth there is much that is miserable and tedious about a Calling - and yet to give it up is the greater evil.
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His father would never have summoned Celehar into his presence, though, and he supposes, with a weak twitch of the corner of his mouth, that it ought to have been his first sign.]
It seemed to me Ulis's will. [And once more, following the reckless compulsion he feels the need to clarify,] I - was given a task, and had not realized until I was doing so once more that I had missed it terribly. Have you met that feeling? It is - a compulsion. I cannot explain it, for in truth there is much that is miserable and tedious about a Calling - and yet to give it up is the greater evil.